Today i had a field trip to the medical college. It offered a great display of the medical field, an incredible campus, and amazing student body. All in all it was a great place. Only problem was getting there took way to much time and effort
Idk why it bothers me since i didn't have much of a desire to sit in class anyway, but i could have been using that time for a more productive purpose. Public transportation is just not prepared to take a class of 38 students and 3 supervisors.
At least it gave me some time to think. I realized in the past months that i was depressed and starting to fall deeper into myself. Outwardly nothing changed but, inside i was crying for help. Still no matter how much i wanted someone to help me my inability to give other people my problems. Everyone is troubled by something, and they usually tell me for some reason. So i do my best to help them out. This apparently gives off the impression that i have no problems. Which is not even close to the truth.
Pressure from school drives me to the edge to get good grades. I have basically no self esteem, and an inferiority and superiority complex. Not to mention 1 of 4 sentences i speak have a lie somewhere in them.
And when everything starts to crumble i breakdown and just stop functioning. So from now on i plan to vent my frustrations out through this blog. And let the world see the mind of Todd Jones.
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